It’s 10 pm on a Monday night and I’m still online, keeping my new vow to BLOG AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK. This summer I slipped out of the blogging habit (which honestly had never been impressive) due to… well, having the girls out of school and the general, beautiful craziness of summer. Keeping up [...]
Entries Tagged as 'mothering guilt'
BACK IN THE SADDLE
September 5th, 2011 3 Comments
Tags: back to school · motherhood · mothering guilt · summer
FOOD SERVICES
June 8th, 2011 5 Comments
After my first baby was born, I lay in a milky haze in a dim room with dark crimson sheets. We nursed and slept, nursed and slept as late summer pulsed with cricket-song, and sunflowers blazed in the garden below the window. My body, which had previously been decorative, had become functional. I fed the [...]
Tags: breastfeeding · cooking · food services · kid food · mothering guilt · Parenting
Sick Day
March 3rd, 2011 No Comments
Just when I’m getting pumped to step clean out of The Baby Cave– one high-heel stiletto boot at a time– and paradoxically going dewy-eyed over other’s people’s plump babies, the hormonal zeal for yet more procreation fueling my third-child fantasies– we get hit with a Tummy Bug. First my three-year-old falls asleep on Sunday afternoon, [...]
Tags: motherhood · mothering guilt · Munchausen Syndrome by Proxy · sick · The Baby Cave
The Therapy Jar
October 13th, 2010 1 Comment
After a particularly grueling afternoon of 3-year-old tantrums and sibling battles, a glass of chocolate milk is spilled–seemingly on purpose– all over the floor, and I find myself at the mercy of maternal rage. “G-d—it!” I yell, releasing pent-up fury. “WHY do I have to clean up your mess all the time!?” Poor Carmen’s eyes [...]
Tags: mothering guilt · My Hollywood · Parenting · Philip Larkin · psychotherapy · therapy
When Things Fall Apart
September 1st, 2010 No Comments
Late summer blows in like a sudden storm. The cold front sends me rushing to close the windows, their casings swollen open for three months straight. I remember the heat wave now like a lost lover, blurred with nostalgia and regret. Why didn’t I savor it while it was here? Why did I wish it [...]
Tags: depression · motherhood · mothering guilt · Pema Chodron · when things fall apart
One Day Till 5
August 25th, 2010 1 Comment
It’s late August and A. is about to turn 5. We’ve been on a countdown all month, and now the big day is TOMORROW. A. morphed into a nasty little monster in time for C’s birthday, but has now, thankfully, returned to her sunny personality. Despite some sister-hair-pulling and scratching, her behavior has been lovely– [...]
Tags: acceptance · five-year-old · motherhood · mothering guilt
Pink Flowers for Mommy
February 16th, 2010 1 Comment
My daughter is obsessed with holidays. She still plays “Christmas Eve” with her sister, wrapping up dolls and toys in scarves and placing them under a “tree” made of chairs. Just when I’m grooving in my New Year’s rhythm, the stress of December firmly regulated to the past, I hear a delighted scream: “Look, Santa’s [...]
Tags: holiday · mothering guilt · pink carnations · princesses · romance · Valentine's Day